Breaking Free From Yourself
The battle is real. Do you ever find yourself holding you back? I see it in myself all the time. I get in my own head and play these stupid head games. I ask myself a million “What if” questions. I procrastinate if I am not 100% sure. The need to get it right the first time is always the way I seem to look at things. But I am human, not God. I will make mistakes and bad decisions along the way. Why can’t I stop my brain from running a hundred miles a minute? Am I self sabotaging on purpose? If I am honest, I probably do. Some days I am just tired of the struggles. Then there are other days that I am on fire and ready to take on the world.
I often wonder if I broke free from myself and all the self doubt and self sabotage, if I would recognize myself. Would my friends and family still like me? What would my personality be like? Would it be different at all? If I broke fee would it be an internal change within myself or external? Maybe both? The unknown is scary, but can be exciting. I feel like in order to survive successfully in this crazy world we live in today, we have to break free from ourselves and live and learn as changes happen among the generations after us and how quickly technology changes. Also learning to take chances on ourselves and others and to trust that change can be good and empowering rather it be something were comfortable with or not.
Another thing I do that I need to break free from is worrying what other people think. One thing that I am realizing is that people definitely do not think of you as often as you think they do. I have also realized that even if you do something crazy that people are shocked by, their shock will pass and you may just end up being a topic of someone’s conversation for a little while. Who cares? Really!!!! It doesn’t matter. You should be you. I should me.
One thing I recently did which is out of the norm for me is I got my nose pierced. I know, not a big deal right? I had wanted to do this for at least 5 years. Even before it was really popular. I always used the reasoning that I needed to set an example for my kids, or it will leave a scar on your nose or something random as to why I couldn’t just do it. Well, I did it. What I now realize is that that little nose piercing hasn’t changed who I am at all. I am still the same Mom, same Wife, same Aunt, same Friend that I have alway been. Now I just have a little sparkle on my nose. lol. I don’t know if I will keep it forever but I broke free from myself and my ideas in my head that was holding me back from a happier me. No, I am not having a midlife crisis. I am fine. I am me.
I feel like it’s important to have people to talk to and run ideas by them. Get different perspectives one things from different people. Break out of your mold and stop sabotaging your happiness and who you are meant to be. You don’t have to go do something life changing or totally out there. Just work on the things that you are asking “What if?” about. Why aren’t you taking the new job offer? If you don’t wear red because someone told you that it is not your color but you personally love it, then break free from yourself and your mindset. You can do it and you feel so refreshed and in charge of the person you are.
As I write this, I realize that this may not be easy for some people. Different things can trigger emotions and it can become a real challenge. Take one day at a time and do what you can. I will continue to work on being a better me. I hope you do too! You are worth it.
